Weekend

This morning we got up and came downstairs.  I turned on the tv expecting to see Regis & Kelly or Ellen only to realize it was Saturday.  Weekends don't mean much without Paul here.  I know he will only be gone for 6 months, but weekends were always our time to run errands together, go out to eat, hang out.  We usually spent all day just doing family things.  It seems odd to be here without him.  No trips to Home Depot.  I haven't even gone outside today except to dig Sasha's kiddy pool out of the trees (I actually was pretty proud of myself for that although I cheated and tried to use a rake to at least drag it closer to me). 

People keep telling me how strong I am, how I can get through this.  I know they are trying to be helpful and supportive, but duh.  Of course I'm strong.  Of course I'll get through this.  I don't have any other choice.  You don't marry someone in the military if you are a weak person.  Deployments, TDY's, schools, being apart is all part of military life.  It is expected.  That doesn't mean I necessarily have to like it though.  Schools and TDY's aren't as bad because you can still be together on weekends if you choose and sometimes you can travel with your spouse.  Deployments and remotes are in war zones or in countries with unrest.  But what are you gonna do?   

I was productive though.  I cleaned and semi redecorated the upstairs guest room.  I am no interior designer by any means, but I think it looks pretty good.  I finally hung up some curtains, made the bed, cleaned out under the bed, moved the furniture around.  It's a small room so there wasn't too much I could do, but I do think it looks more like a guest room and less like a storage room. 

I am starting to accumulate a pile for Salvation Army as well as a huge box of books to donate to the library.  I also put away all my maternity clothes and Stinky's 0-3 month clothes.  I was laughing as I was tossing books from the bookshelf into the box as my sister is a book hoarder.  I have gotten my books down to one bookcase and I think that is a goal my sister should have, too (hint hint). 

Tonight is girls night in at my house and I'm very excited about it.  I always love spending time with my girlfriends.

Gotta run.  Someone is not happy.