Who knew that Paul would the writer of the 2 of us? I expected daily, dramatic writings out of myself while he was gone. Mostly I find I have little to say. I think part of it is because if I don't write about it then I don't have to think about it, and I can just be in denial that I won't see him until January. If I write about his deployment then he's deployed. I have been so impressed by Paul's words. He is experiencing so many new things when, for the most part, my life is the same albeit minus him being here. My routine during the week is the same. The weekends are a little different. I definitely feel lonelier. I miss Paul. There is no doubt about that. And of course, much like it was when he was here, I don't care much about his actual job--all I wanna know is what'd you eat??? lol I guess some things never change.
I hate the thought of Paul being lonely or bored over there. I think he would've had a more enjoyable experience if he had stayed in Bagram as the base he's at is small with no BX/PX and nothing really to do at night. I can't imagine working and living in one small room (his CHU pronounced chew, not chewy as I like to call it). Luckily I've sent him some stuff to brighten his walls. Nothing crazy because I know he wouldn't like that, but just momentos from home. Hopefully his boxes start arriving soon!
The favorite part of my day is when I get to talk to Paul. We are so blessed thus far in his deployment. My heart aches for army spouses as they deploy for so long and go to places without much ability to contact their loved ones.
Regardless of Paul's reason for joining and staying in the military I am so proud of him. I am proud to be an Air Force wife, I am proud to say my husband is an Air Force officer, and I am proud to tell people he's deployed.
Paul is the feeling his lack of reliable internet connection. He is missing out on what is going on in the world. Well, I can't help him with that. I don't watch the news, I don't watch sports. I can tell him what the real housewifes are up to or what the Kardashians are doing, but I can't tell him whose running for what political office or if the NFL is going to have a season this year. The only sport I follow is college football (Go Noles!) and I can't wait to put Emma in her FSU outfits!
I am never one to wish my life away, but I do hope the next 6 months go by quickly so Paul comes home safe and sound. Luckily, I am so busy taking care of Stinky that I have little time to think about what is actually happening in the world around Paul right now. Plus I don't want to think about it. I just look forward to talking to him, praying for his safe return, and sending him care packages.
I will say it's nice to not have to prepare dinner every night. Not nice enough that I don't want him home, but a little break for myself in the cooking department. haha Tonight I had an English muffin and some corn on the cob. I was going to make egg salad, but I forgot until just now. Oh well.
In Emma's world--she is rolling over like a champ, playing with her feet, and talking up a storm. She screeches like a howler monkey and laughs at the dogs. She is in 6-9 month onesies and will soon be moving up in jammie sizes as well I'm sure. She goes to sleep like a superstar, but doesn't consistently sleep through the night yet. We're getting there though.
I tell her a 1000 times a day how much her daddy loves her and misses her and she loves to hear the sound of his voice either when he calls or on skype or when we listen to his book. I love to hear the sound of his voice, too. January can't get here quick enough!
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