3 weeks 3 days old

Hallaleujah!  Our little miss Emma is finally putting on some weight.  She is not yet back to birth weight, but she is up to 8lbs 9oz.  That is a huge jump from the 8lbs 4oz she was on Friday (we got her re-weighed on Monday) and we don't have to go back until her 2 month well baby.  We probably will go get her weight checked at some point in the next 2 weeks just to make sure she is still going strong, but we can tell she is getting bigger and taller (up to 21 inches). 

I feel like I'm settling more into motherhood.  Yes, I am still have periods of anxiety and yes, I still get teary eyed (I try not to let myself go too much into the crying and anxiety), but I have high hopes for the zoloft I'm now taking.  My plan is to just take it to get me through this time in my life...having a new baby, knowing that each day is another day closer to my hubby being deployed.

Sometimes I am not sure how I am going to take care of a baby and the dogs and a cat and the house with my hubby gone.  He for sure keeps me focused and is a huge help and partner.  Heck, I'm not even sure how I'm going to manage things when he goes back to work!  That in itself seems overwhelming to me.  Sometimes I wonder "What am I gonna do with a newborn all day?"  I think the key will be to not put too much pressure on myself.  If I get a few minutes to clean the house I'll clean the house.  If Emma & I want to take a nap we'll take a nap.  As long as Emma is thriving and our marriage is thriving then the rest is just icing on the cake. 

My baby has been super cuddly this evening.  Probably because I haven't given her much choice.  hehe  She was fussing and I've been wanting to try out my Sweet Pea Ring Sling so I picked her up and stuck her into it.  I need to work on being able to adjust it after she's in it, but for our purposes of snuggling tonight it worked just fine.  Plus it's beautiful http://www.sweetpearingsling.com/starling.htm.  Within 5 minutes she stopped screaming her head off and fell asleep.  I love having her close to me and can't stop kissing her little head, her perfect tiny nose, and chubby little cheeks.  Plus there is nothing better than baby smell.

In non baby news I think I need to go get my eyes checked.  My vision has been a little blurry and I haven't been to an eye doctor since I had my laser eye surgery oh um like 10 years ago.  Awful I know. 

Hard to believe our little Emma will be 4 weeks old this Saturday.  I feel like we should have a party for surviving the first month.  I'm definitely going to treat myself to a glass of wine if I can swing it in between breastfeeding. 

Gotta run.  Going to be time to feed the piglet soon.  Hopefully she'll not want to eat all night like our last night every hour feedings until 2:30am.  Our lactation consultant said she could be going through a growth spurt although today she has not eaten that much and has slept a lot so who knows.  Her Auntie Cory is coming tomorrow and we are so excited!