Mothering and P90X

In my 20's I never wanted to be a mother.  I didn't want anything growing inside me, I didn't think I could be selfless enough or patient enough.  I had this vision of my life of traveling and being the cool aunt to all my friend's kids.  And then...and then...

And then I had my beautiful baby Emma and I wondered what took me so long! 

My heart leaps with joy every time I look at her and when she smiles at me or at Paul it's like God himself has smiled at us!  And now all I want to be is a mother.  If Paul would let me I'd have a house full of children by adoption.  Lately I've been reading a lot of adoption related blogs like Faith Not Fear and No Greater Joy Mom.  And I can't wait until Paul retires and we settle down in one location so we can adopt (if I can wait that long)!

In other news...

Paul has decided it would be hilarious if I did P90X and blogged about it so we are on a search for a used P90X (email me or comment if you have one you'd sell us cheap or let us borrow).  I've heard scary stories about P90X and considering the other day I was out of breath from walking across the street from the Airmen and Family Readiness Center to the Officer's Club for dinner P90X may well kill me.  You'd think I was pushing a wheelbarrow full of bricks instead of a 10lb baby when I push Emma in her stroller I struggle so much.  What happened from the days in college when I ran 2 miles a day and swam on my breaks when I lifeguarded?????  I weigh at least 50lbs more now than I did then.  Sigh....at least I can say that I am reasonably healthy (Thank God) and have many blessings in my life. 

So, new adventures are always around the corner.  I guess my love of donuts and wine will only continue to catch up with me if I don't start to work out.  Yeah, Giselle and Angelina lost weight with breastfeeding and yoga (really????  really???) so we will add yoga into our repertoire when we return from vacation and I expect to be super slim in 3 months just like them.  Cause you know that is so realistic and all. 

Let me just recap what I've eaten today for you...half a Boston cream muffin and half a pumpkin muffing (both of which had icing on top---God love the Gingerbread Construction Company), an unsweet tea and a greek salad, a pepsi, some water, the other half of the pumpkin muffin, and now I'm about to have some leftover chips and queso from Chili's.  I figure if I eat salads for lunch then at least I am getting some vegetables since I apparently only eat them otherwise if Paul makes me at dinner.  I am a terrible eater.  Maybe that is why Emma has gas all the time.  lol  Do you see why I'm fat????