Feeling good

I am not sure if I am just getting used to surviving on little to no sleep or if my exhaustion has just morphed into psychosis either way I am feeling pretty good during the day.  I was hopeful that we had turned a corner as our sweet baby girl slept 6 hours the other night, but last night she was fussy and wanted to snuggle with mama and mama did not get much sleep.  We are trying to move into getting Em onto the start of a sleep schedule and perhaps this week we will start to make some changes in our night time routine.  Perhaps it's not that my body has gotten used to being exhausted or psychosis, but perhaps I've just surrendered and accepted that I'll be tired for the next 18 years. 

Em's other fave thing is to be WIDE AWAKE after her early morning feeding...whether that occurs at 5am or 6am...after she eats it is playtime!  Mommy no likey.  I can usually get her to lay back down for an hour and then she's awake and wanting to start her daytime feedings so my solution is to side nurse her so I can snooze while she snacks.  Of course she ends up snoozing, too, and this appals my mom.  She is sure I am going to roll over and smother Em.  I've thought about this, too, but don't sleep deep enough or physically put myself in a position to roll over.  Seems like a lot of women side nurse when they are tired so am trusting God to watch over us and keep us safe. 

Just had the best, although too short, visit with our friend Anne-Marie.  She is an amazing woman and an amazing friend and we had some of the best conversations about God and relationships and friendships that I've had in a long time.  Both of us realize how blessed we are in the friendships we made in Valdosta and how friendships like those don't come along very often.  Em loved AM and took to her like a fish to water. 

We went today and took family portraits.  My fears that Em would scream cry the whole time was for nought as she did really well and we got some very cute pictures.  Am so excited to get them back and hang pics of Em up in our house. 

Hope everyone is having as good of a weekend as we are!