You know how they say at some point in every addiction you reach rock bottom. Well my addiction has been overeating and I've hit rock bottom. Or at least I hope this is rock bottom because if I gain any more weight I am going to sink like a rock this summer in the pool.
I think what the real trigger for me has been, not only understanding how much weight I've gained in the last 10 years (45lbs y'all!), but knowing how easy it would be to gain another 45. Also when your hubby comes back from his deployment and the 2 of you weigh the same...well, that's just the kick in the teeth you need. Of course my hubby's been home since mid January and I've just not come to the realization that things have got to change. Okay, I've always known things have got to change, but right now I feel good about the upcoming changes.
Knowing I am possibly going to see 2 of my dearest friends this summer who are both moms and both super skinny (Emily and Cory I'm talking about you!) and that there is a possibility bathingsuits will be needed...um, hello no one wants to be the fat friend. Not that Cory or Emily or their wonderful husbands would ever make me feel uncomfortable, but still.
I've also gotten to the point where I am embarrassed to be naked in front of Paul. He tells me constantly all the time how beautiful I am and how much he loves me, but I want to feel proud of myself in front of him and right now I don't.
When you have a belly that rivals Santa Claus and you can feel it jiggling like a bowl full of jello all the time it ain't pretty people. Ain't pretty at all.
Originally I thought I'd be pregnant by now, but I'm not so we've decided to take a break from that thus giving me zero excuses to not be serious about my weight loss! No excuses. I've joined a gym and found that I actually really enjoy it. I went to Stroller Strides this morning and while I felt like I was going to throw up most of the class I do feel like I got an awesome work (and I didn't even cry...much) out so my friend Jessica and I will be doing that with Em and Felicity. (FYI Jessica is a skinny mom, too. Her work out pants do NOT roll down under the weight of her belly.)
And then it's such a gorgeous day out that I went outside and raked leaves for an HOUR! Do you know how hard it is to rake leaves especially when your lunch was a 200 calorie lean cuisine???? You'd have thought I had just finished running a half marathon the way I was panting. But I felt so proud of myself because it was something that needed to be done, I got an extra work out from it, and I may or may not be working off the credit card debt I ran up while Paul was deployed (I was sad. Don't judge me. lol Seriously though credit cards are no joke. Don't be a loser like me.).
I've also been tracking what I eat on the my fitness pal app. And I have decided that I am going to train and run the Disney Princess Half Marathon in 2013 AND I've enlisted the help of several good friends to run with me (and Paul).
I'm putting it out there that I'm starting this journey at 191lbs. Holy hell. How did it get this bad?
If you're doing something great to lose weight and it's working for you then brag on yourself and leave a comment sharing your success.
Ooops, gotta run. The tiny dictator is up from her nap.
I'm super proud of you!!! I know you can do it!! If I can lose 70, you can most definitely lose 45!
ReplyDeleteGo Jenn!! The best is that you're putting it out there and paying attention to getting fit now, so much better than letting the weight creep up on you.
ReplyDeleteI've been working on eating less processed foods (if I read the label and it has a laundry list of ingredients I can't pronounce, that's a bad sign...) and eating more whole foods, fruits and vegetables. Find it helpful to have stuff I enjoy like apples, bananas, green peppers, etc. always stocked up; if I want cookies I eat an apple & then reevaluate.
I also track my food, can you believe the numbers on some restaurant meals!? I know I will slip up at times (my birthday was a fiasco.... 2700+ calories...) but at least I eat more mindfully and know when I'm overdoing it.
One final thing I'm probably starting to sound like a salesperson for, I love my Fitbit! It syncs up with food tracking sites and it tells me how many steps and how much active time I'm getting in. So I can see a graph of what my daily calorie burn is vs. my intake. I've lost about 7 pounds since Jan. 1st. I stalled out a bit the month I was sick, but it's still really gratifying to see that you've walked 17,000 steps or whatnot in a day, makes you want to go out and do 20K the next time =) Speaking of, it's beautiful outside, I'm going for a walk!
http://www.fitbit.com/forums/topic/4KTZ2J9SLYB6W
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