Slacker

I really really really gotta get on the ball.  I feel like I have zero motivation to do anything!  And there are things I want to do and then I think eh, who cares.  lol  I certainly don't want to pass my slovenly ways on to Emma.  Paul and I are the top dogs of procrastinators and what a terrible habit to have. 

First off let's talk about my weight.  I am slightly disgusted about how I keep letting opportunities to lose weight slip by and instead just keep gaining weight.  I for sure am the person who eats for taste instead of eating to be healthy.  Ugh!  And if anyone makes a comment about how I'm being too hard on myself I may have to come beat you up.  It's not about being hard on myself it's about being honest and realistic.  Sometimes the truth hurts and that is ok.  I guess I am just not ready to get healthy.  I am way addicted to sugar which is a huge part of the problem.  And I think part of my lack of motivation is knowing I'm going to get pregnant next year anyways so what is the point of losing weight now.  haha  When you are overweight going into a pregnancy you don't have to gain as much weight and your baby weight comes off very quickly (of course then you are still just overweight, but hey...thick chicks gotta get something). 

Secondly I have done super well staying away from alcohol and soda.  Granted it's not even been 2 weeks yet without alcohol, but I actually don't even miss it (although I'd love one of my hoarded Blue Moon Octoberfest beers) and it's only been 7 days without soda.  I used to never drink soda and then I went crazy.  Pepsi was probably one of the few things I craved during my pregnancy.  I know how terrible soda is for you and I really don't want to be someone who drinks soda or eats fast food (I had Taco Bell the other day and it did not agree with me so that may keep me from fast food right there).  I probably went 10 years without eating any fast food.  I was much much thinner then. 

Thirdly I think I stress eat.  For sure our time in Florida has not been the relaxing vaca I thought it would be.  We've been plagued by illness and doctors appointments and what not.  My goal is to get Em to sleep through the night 12 hours by the time Paul gets home.  I (wait for it) have finally broken down and let Em cry.  I know!  Are you gasping in shock????  I only went in 3 times last night for brief comforts and she fell asleep within 30 minutes and slept till 4:30am.  I let her cry and then went in briefly and then went back in again at 5am because she was ready to nurse and then we fell back to sleep until 8am!  I got 6 whole hours of sleep in a row!  I may have woken up briefly to look at her on the monitor but I went right back to sleep.  And she cried at naptime this morning, but then she had pooped so once I changed her she fell right to sleep (nap time hasn't really ever been our problem minus the fact that she only sleeps for 30 minutes). 

Fourth I am beyond ready for Paul to get home.  It's so close and yet seems like its taking so long.  It's that last hour of a car trip...you know how close you are and yet it's the longest part of the trip. 

I need to go to the dmv to get our tags switched to FL, and I need to do my CEU's for my FL license, and I need to start sending boxes home. 

Thursday I think I am going to take Emma to get her first picture with Santa Claus!  I'll post the pic so you can see how it goes.  All I can think about is the year my BFF Cory took her daughter and used it as her Christmas card...Santa, Abby hysterical crying, and Cory hysterical laughing...best Christmas card ever! 

Hope everyone is enjoying their December!  Much love and holiday cheer to all!